deep in gratitude

 

I’ve been back in my gratitude practice now for two weeks. It’s been so therapeutic for me. It’s helping me keep my eyes open to the world around me and what’s shifting inside me. If you’ve not joined in, please know that you can do that at any time. You can post them on facebook and tag @milagrogirl so that I can see them or you can post them on twitter and tag them with #maygratitudes.

In the midst of your gratitude, I’d like to encourage you to be thankful for something that’s hard, something that pushed you or challenges you. It gets really beautiful when you can be thankful for even the tough stuff. It also seems to make things not quite as tough when you speak out loud the gratitude for your struggles.

In other news, I’m really loving being a part of the tribe at Roots of She. I’m in good company over there and the other day I spent some time, (quite a bit of it actually) on Amy’s blog. She talks about relationships and bam, this post, hit me hard. If you need a kick in the pants on how to shake up your love life, GO, watch. She’s got tons of good stuff over there.

In settling into our house here, I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been hating on it. Then yesterday I read this post by the lovely Tara Whitney, and within seconds I had big fat tears rolling down my face. For one thing I want to be in a place that even some of my family loves, but in the meantime I’d like to learn to make the most of it here, in this little space.

I’ve been pretty private about it but I was recently diagnosed with some pretty serious heart stuff. It shook my world, it’s shaking my world. I’ve come realize that it goes deep, way more deep than my heart. I’ve been carrying around some sadness and a bit of anger and this has been a huge wake-up call for me. I’m not only changing what I put in my body as far as food, but also what emotions I’m allowing to sit instead of flowing through me. I’m using Tara’s Digging Deep *workbook as past of my healing process. I spent quite a bit of time with it last summer, but I’m realizing it’s time to go deeper, literally. I love that there’s audio so I can listen while I’m walking or snuggled into bed.

In this healing process I’m also spending a ton of time in meditation. I’ve got my phone loaded up with podcast’s and mp3′s so that whenever I need to breathe deeper, there’s something right there. I’m loving Jenn’s Metta in Mantras Meditation. So much gentle kindness in there.

I’m attempting to fill my space with so much positive during this healing time. I’m burning gold nag champa, listening to the new Norah Jones on Spotify per my friend Lindsay. (She sent me the link just last night and I listened as I settled into bed. Her voice is so soothing and the lyrics…mmm. Go listen now.) I’m also purging my space of things that no longer serve me or make me feel wonderful.

In nourishment, I recently did a spring cleanse with Stephanie of Wellness By Design. It wasn’t the kind of cleanse that made me feel tortured and hungry. I ate, and ate well. I came away with lots of great recipes and things I’ve integrated into my daily routines. This was not violent purge, it was gentle and kind. I’ve also been getting a plethora of love from my friend Victoria. (I cannot wait until she has a blog so I can share her with you.) She has been a coach to me these past few weeks. Walking alongside me in my healing journey. Again, the importance of a tribe, it’s life giving.

My life is full of good things. I have so much to share and so much that I want to do. I’m determined, now more than ever, to become the most vibrant, whole Alicia that I can.

I’m also determined to rock out the work that I’m called to. Some of that starts here. I’m looking forward to speaking my truth even louder and encouraging you to do the same. There is so much life to be lived. Why live it half way?

 

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The Practice of Gratitude

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I started my gratitude practice almost a year and a half ago. I’m not sure what or who triggered it for me but it has been a beautiful journey for me. I’ve had people asking about whether they could join in and I thought that May might be a good time to encourageyou to join in. I’m going to write a little bit about my experience and then share some ways that you can join me.

I posted my first gratitude on twitter 12/08/2010:  “Last nights #gratitude list included Chinese take out, a big bath tub, listening to my parents watch Wheel of Fortune, and hugs.”

It evolved from there into listing 5 things every night that I was grateful for. Sometimes they were simple, lovely things:

My mom just mailed me a box from my fave GF bakery for my birthday! I’m a very happy girl.

Sometimes they’re really big things: Christmas #gratitudes; first Christmas as a legal family of 6, kids who are excited over simplicity, breakfast for dinner & wii dancing.

On the really rough days when it was a struggle to remain grateful and I struggled to find 5 things, I’d push myself to look for a 6th:  Compliments on my amazing kids, About page completed, the Civil Wars, lemon ice, making travel plans and my new MacBook Pro.

Reading back through them I see friendships that were budding, relationships that have since been lost, places I’ve connected to, music that I forgot I loved, dinners that filled more than my belly, and I see so much growth, in me and around me.

Sunday morning #gratitudes @christinemoers, Florence blasting while I cry, our map, and my gypsy heart.

I’ve gotten a little off track with them the last couple months and I really miss the practice. If you’d like to join me here are some ways to do that.

1. List 5 things you are grateful for that day. Try not to repeat things you’ve listed before but don’t be anal about it :) We’re not going for perfection here.

2. You can keep track in a journal and then post them at night, you can write them on a post note as they happen or you can post each one as is comes up. Again, no perfection here.

3. You’ll find that you start looking for them throughout the day, the more you practice the more you see. It’s beautiful. Trust this.

4. When it sucks, list an extra, look a little harder, dig a little deeper, the 6th one might be the best gem of that day.

5. Tag your tweets so that others can connect and see them. Use this hashtag #maygratitudes

I look forward to reigniting this practice in my life AND connecting with you.

The Power of Picturing

 

Today I’m being announced as part of the spring tribe on Roots of She. My heart is full of gratitude AND excitement. It’s something I’ve wanted to be a part since I saw what Jenn created in that space.

When I made a list of things I wanted for Milagro Girl this year it was high on that list. I pictured myself there. And not six weeks into the year BAM there was an email asking me to be a part of the spring tribe.

Our minds are amazing in how they work. I can’t even begin to understand the power of the brain and all it’s intricacies. But I have seen over and over again how what I think, the things that I believe have such an impact in my reality.

I have struggled with depression in my life and I’ve also gotten to know anxiety a bit lately. I have also known the greatest joy and been at places in my life where I believed that nothing could be better than those very moments (and sometimes the depression and the jubilous moments happened in sync with each other, side by side). It ebbs and flows in my life, I can see patterns and other times it’s random and unexpected. That’s what makes my belief in the power of my thoughts so strong.

We all know that there’s power in our words. But not just our thoughts, the visual things we see in our mind. The little pictures that we take and the ones that we create.
Sometimes we forget that what happens in our heads matters. Those little thoughts and the imagined photographs, we mark them as private and let our minds run wild, believing that if no one else sees them then they don’t matter.

I’m working on a practice of  seeing good things happen to me, first in my mind and then in reality. I’m focusing a little less in seeing the tragedies, the heartbreaks and the “What if’s”. I’m not only focused on the thoughts that are going through the electric parts of my brain, but the visual.

It’s not a magic pill, the picturing. It’s not also all that easy. But if you can just take a moment, close your eyes and picture yourself loved, picture yourself succeeding, picture yourself having what it is that’s meant for you, then maybe just then you give permission for the best to happen to you. You reach out your hands in acceptance, and you take a small step towards the magic.

*One of the really amazing things that I’ve used this last year in creating a positive visual for my life is a vision board. You can read more about them here and I love what Hannah Marcotti put together here.